LOST WITHOUT WORDS :
WELL I REALLY DONT KNOW WHERE TO START SO HERE GOES I AM A MOTHER OF 5 WONDERFUL KIDS COULD NOT BE MORE BLESSED. I HAVE 3 GREAT FRIENDS. BUT MY NEED IS TO HAVE SOMEONE FROM OUTSIDE LOOK IN . I AM WITH MY YOUNGEST TWO 7 MTH OLD TWINS THERE DAD WHICH IS OKAY I FEEL I DO CARE FOR HIM BUT AT THE SAME TIME JUST DONT KNOW HE DRINKS AND YELLS ALOT THEN SAYS HE WILL WORK ON IT WE HAVE SOE GOOD DAYS I CANT ASK HIM FOR ANYTHING CAUSE HE GETS MAD I DO HAVE CHILD SUPPORT ON HIM WHICH IS 200 BUT HE WANTS ME TO TURN IT OFF AND I AM SCARED TO DO THAT CAUSE HE DOES NOT EVEN WANT TO PAY FOR SMALL THINGS HE DOES PAY ALL THE BILLS BUT ALSO DRINKS EVERYDAY I ONLY MAKE A LITTLE A WEEK AND STILL HAVE TO BYUY FOR THE BABIES AND PAY FOR MY GAS AND THINGS AND 50.00 IN CHILD CARE AND I ONLY MAKE 200.00 I HAVE MOVED BACK TO MY X HUSBAND 2 BUT HE WANTS THINGS I DONT WANT TO DO SO I WENT BACK I HAVE NO WHERE ELESE TO GO MY DAD KILLED HIMSELF MY MOM SHOT HERSELF AND IS ?? MY BROTHER WAS MURDED AND MY GRANDMA DIED THE REST OF MY FAMILY HAS FALLEN OFF THE EARTH I HAVE I JUST NEED TO KNOW IF ME BEING THERE AND WALKING ON EGG SHELLS ALONG WITH MY OLDER 3 AND HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT HIM GETTING MAD OVER SOMETHING OR GOING BACK TO X AND DOING THINGS I DONT WANT TO